My birthday wish this year...

1. Is to have a birthday cake.

so that I can make a wish on it and blow the candles. Because I haven't had a birthday cake for years so I didn't get to make any birthday wish hence the rather bad luck I'm facing these years wtf. And the birthday cake that I want is the kinda cheap cartoon ones with salty butter icing that I used to get every year as a child. Yum. Not the secret recipe or stuff like that cos those are expensive and too sweet.


2. Is to be able to study hard and not get carried away by other stuffs. And not to disappoint my always supportive parents.


3. Get presents.

Haha. Don't laugh. I don't usually get presents for my birthday (only occasionally).

Suddenly I feel sad for myself. hmm.
There are some other materialistic kinda wishes but I forgot what those are.


生日快乐 我对自己说
Sheng ri kuai le wo dui zi ji shuo
Happy birthday, I said to myself

蜡烛点了
La zhu dian le
[As] The candles are blown

寂寞亮了
Ji mo liang le
Loneliness lit up


Song by Landy Wen Lan. http://chinesemusicblog.com/forum/viewtopic.php?pid=4452

Grey Skies - Bright skies.

Watched Twilight - New Moon.. xD

It was Fong Ling's birrthday on Saturday night. I'm still considering if I should post those pics here. Cos those pics are from everywhere/everyone but not from me. I didn't bring camera (too lazy and couldnt be bothered). And her house was really hugeeee. And and we played truth or dare. Where Ee Ann got to "french kiss" a leng chai. Not really french kiss actually but thats what they actually asked them to do. while I, haha. I dont know is this considered lucky or what. got to hug them all =S you tell me is this lucky or otherwise? =/

And what else happened hmm...

Nothing much. Sometimes I feel happy, but sometimes I feel so depressed I would isolate myself and have no mood to talk or to participate in conversations. Still am haunted by the various problems I faced. I think that the second half of year 2009 onwards was really tough for me. I fell down, picked up the pieces, got back up, fell down again, and now picking the pieces again.

Sigh. Are these some forms of challenges that Guan Yin Ma wants me to face? I hope I'll see brighter skies soon. =/

And! I finally got those pictures from Ashley. Pics taken when we worked at Sandy Lam's concert. We were all supposed to wear black + Jeans. haha. Hence the dullness/lack of colour.

It's all the same shots. Same position, same pose, same smile. I didnt know which one I should post so I decided to post all. haha.

Me, Ashley, Cindy.

Bad angle for me but I still like. heh.

My deepest condolence

An acquaintance of mine, also an old schoolmate passed away today. It's circulating on facebook where everyone's asking him to RIP.

Apparently, he was playing basketball at USJ 6. After the game, he was walking to his car with some friends under the trees when the lightning striked them. He, unfortunately, could not survive from the incident while one of the other guys got striked at the leg and could not walk (I think). The other 2 were fine, which is really a blessing. *(update: I was told that one became deaf. only 1 was fine.)*

It's just really disappointing that the ambulance did not come immediately after they called. It could have saved his life.

And I know that lightnings can be deadly. But it's just really strange that this happened on the 6th of December, 6pm at USJ 6. = 666. Is it coincidence or what? I don't know but I really find it freaky.

To those I care. And the one(s) I cared most. Please. Pleaseee do not stay outdoors as soon as the weather begins to turn bad. Please go home once it turns bad. I don't wanna lose any of you.

Well, although I don't know him well, but I really feel sad that this happened. RIP, Han Yin. I hope his family will be able to cope.

Suddenly, I feel that the problems that I am facing are nowhere near those that Han Yin's family is facing. And I wanna say that I love my parents, siblings, and friends very much. Close friends, and he who was and still is important to me.

Take care you guys.

Wake up.

Something suddenly made me realise that there're more important things in life than what I thought I couldn't live without.

So I've made up my mind to not torture myself for I know without this now I can also live happy in the future. (I hope). And now my main motive is to study hard hard to not disappoint my parents, and hopefully, make them proud of me. Oh yeah, I found out that my strength lies in Banking & Finance. (I hope I'm right).

See. Life is full of uncertainties. Personally I think it sucks. But to some people, it is challenging. It simply proves that I'm not a risk taker =/

Chronicles..

Is it just me or I really lost the mood to blog lately?

Well, I think I went through many things the past few weeks. Ups and down. (note singular and plural). I thought everything was going on really well til it happened.

anyway, updates updates..

1. I got the chance to work at a concert.

It was Sandy Lam Yik Lin (林憶蓮)'s concert at Bukit Jalil Indoor Stadium. Coincidently, Hacken Lee and Alan Tam were also holding their Jor Lun Yao Lei (左麟右李) concert next door at the outdoor stadium. Frankly, I was more interested in working at Hacken's concert cos I really like his songs and his voice. But then there wasn't any connection that I have with the crew of Hacken's concert so too bad. I got to work at Sandy's cos my friend's friend was one of the organisers. But Sandy's concert isn't that bad too. I like 1 of her songs and know of some other of hers too.

Hacken Lee was rehearsing my favouritest (to emphasize my love for the song. haha.) 2 songs from him. One is from the Zhao Dim Fong Wan (酒店風雲)/Revolving Doors of Vengeance drama, the other is from Legal Entanglement (法網伊人) the I Love You song. You could hear it from outside the stadium. I. Wanna. Go. In. !!!!! Oh yeah there were 2 ladies who actually got wrongly into Sandy Lam's concert with their Jor Lun Yao Lei's VVIP tickets tored off by careless ticket checkers outside =S

It indeed was a good experience. I got to see how singers rehearse before a concert, and I got to be as close as almost 1 metre away from the singer when she rehearsed. And then I got picked to usher at the VVIP and the most expensive area because the boss said I'm pretty. hahahahahaha seriously that was a great ego boost. I was really flattered. =)

So I got to watch her concert at the place that's worth RM368 for free! and I get paid for that. teehees. The only disadvantage is that I had to work a bit and I did not get to work with my friends cos they were not as lucky as me, and by the end of the day my legs were really painful. But it's all worth it because I think that my job is the most comfortable among my friends'.

During the rehearsal. Apparently we were not allowed to take pictures/video during rehearsals. So I only dared took it from afar =/

Before the concert.

During the concert. Sorry my handphone video quality lousy.

And at the end of the concert, one of the crew members who is also Vernon's friend asked if I wanted to be on Astro On Demand. So I asked what I have to do for that. To which he replied "Play games with HK celebs". I was like OMG is it fer real. I love love loveee HK celebs! So I was like ok and he said he'll contact Vernon to contact me if there's any soon. =) =) =) Can't wait to meet 'em HK celebs =D

There are some more videos and pictures from the concert that I'm waiting for Ashley to send. Wonder what's taking her so long >=/

2. Then it was Hin Guan's birthday.

We decided to hit RedBox to celebrate his birthday cos we love Karaoke. hehe. But the poor boy seemed so emo on that day. When we surprised him with the cake he finally told us what's been bothering him. He was so emo that I felt his emoness cos I was also emo because something happened to me the night before. And stupid CK wanted to sing some stupid emo songs (Fen Shou Kuai Le) to emofy the environment wtf. He sucks. LoL.

But I hope it's all better now. I've come to accept my fate. Like people say, close one door and open the others. More to come in Australia =)

3. And I'm gonna start my internship next week.

Say goodbye to my summer vacation. I feel excited but scared at the same time. Worried that I don't know the operations in the banking/finance sector and will drive my superior nuts. T__T

And and! I have no one to have lunch with =( YOU GUYS! hop on down to KL when you're free during lunch time to have lunch with me k! << [veryyyy important. ]

then you all can hang around at KL after lunch til 5+ and we can take the LRT back to KL central and back to Subang together! YAYS. doesn't that sound fun? no. sigh. I think nobody will be mulia enough to do that for me and I'll feel very lonely la =( but i have to do this for the betterment of my career in the future. double sigh =(

Whoa this looks like a long post. Thank you if you actually read everything. Means that my encounters mean something to you. hehe. =)

4. Now I'm feeling emo thinking of all the things I've done this year.

Oh before that! My sis bought me an early birthday present!! It's what I've always wanted but never got around buying it. Guess what! It's BB CREAM!!!! It's the best make up ever. I would like to call it the magic cream =/ hahaha.

I remember back then when I saw Suan Shih buying it I was so envious. btw SUAN SHIH I MISS YOU!! fine. she won't see it cos she doesn't read my blog. =/

Ok back to where we stopped. Well cos it's so expensive $.$. and now I finally own it. so happy so happy so happy I could hug the BB cream to sleep at night xD oh ya i wanna call it the magic cream cos it makes your skin look really naturally flawless! Like it makes your skin look really flawless yet it doesn't look like there's any make up on =D But expensive la so must use cautiously. cannot waste. heh.

I miss...

=/ =(

Those moments.







my long hair T___T

emo... =(

eh i think doesn't look like emo also... wadever la. emo. =(

I am very sad. I am. I feel like my world broke apart. Though I tried to hide. I think I did a good job hiding from you guys just now eh. I don't know. It just feels weird breaking down and cry in front of people. I tried so hard to control. Sometimes I just really don't feel like keeping all these emotions to myself but I don't know how I'm gonna open up to people since I'm afraid of them seeing me emo. But thanks guys.

Happy birthday Hin Guan. I should be more emo than you =( but i think yours is hard to take too though I don't know how that would feel.

update: and my mom made it much worst. she picked a very bad fight with me and it made my wound even deeper than before. now who do i have to run to =(

and I can't get to watch New Moon =( why is it that I always fail to watch the Twilight movies? =(

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It happened so soon. So sudden.

I still do not know how to react. All sorts of emotions running through my mind... numb.

Take care.