It's terribly hard to tell someone honestly how you felt bout what she did/didn't do when she turns all defensive, not even accepting what you say.   And to make things worse she goes on and on babbling things that signal an initiation to argue.  Wouldn't opening your heart and talk nicely be a better option? I always wished i had someone like this to confide in. How do i talk calmly to you when you didn't even allow me to in the first place? This happened every. single. time. Sometimes,  in general it might seem like nothing is wrong, but drill down to smaller details/incidences, some of the things could have been done better. There are some incidences to mention, but i just thought there wasn't any point bringing it up since anything said was defended without consideration. Well, perhaps i just have to keep these to myself and feel the burden of not being able to share with anyone. Does anyone know how helpless this feels? Sigh.

Emo.. For?

There're some things that, even if given a second chance, you would still make the same decision. But, you don't feel quite happy with how it is now either.

Fickled minded, it seems?
Time will tell. I hope.

If only...

If only I had more time, there'd be so many things I wish I had done/would do.

Update: Graduation

It's been almost half a year since I last blogged. I always find it amazing how time flies. Then, I had just completed my studies and preparing to look for a job; Fast forward, now I've been working for months already, getting more and more used to it day by day. Such is life...

But what happened in between, was the official ceremony to mark the completion of my studies of 3 years. It felt a bit emotional here and there, nevertheless I'm still glad that it's all over. The assignment stress, exam stress, sometimes-unnecessary-pressure-put-on-self etc, I bid farewell to them! =P but lo and behold, a nastier version of stress has taken over now at work. Not complaining! =)

So it's pretty obvious that by now I have officially turned from a graduand to a graduate. I'm now an alumni! whoa that term makes me feel old. But seriously, this is just still so surreal! Like "*pinch pinch* what? I'm now at this phase of life? noooooo" kinda thing. (sorry drama sedikit di sana)

Glad to have had family and friends at the convocation to celebrate this remarkable moment with me.

To my peers -
We've come a longggg way, and now ready to take on the world of uncertainty, volatility and challenges. All the best in your future endeavours and do strive for the best!

The important ones that I feel most thankful to, always. =')

It's such an honour to have grandma over all the way from Ipoh to witness my graduation. Hope I made her proud =)

And there're friends to thank as well. Since there were too many with friends, so I shall only put those with my favorites =P

To my 4 beloved ex (Australia) housemates -
Though I've said this many times before, it's still such a pleasure to have met you guys there and thanks for making my Aussie days so much better than it would have been! Thanks for making my convo a very meaningful one with your presence (though room 4 occupant is still stuck in Aus and couldn't be here but it's ok)! It really meant a lot to me =)

Thanks for the presents and cards too! =)

We've come to the end of the graduation update today.

Til we meet again, take care!
=)

Hola!

It's been quite an interesting week so far. But I've been out too often lately and have been spending limited time at home with the family (bet they missed me too woohoo). Let's hope tomorrow (Sunday) and the few days after would be nice stay-home days! =D

Nevertheless, it's been fun seeing new people, attending the bbq minus those annoying cats :( URGH!, the dinner with people I did not know well (but randomly fun =D), and the meet-ups with people who came back from overseas lately! It's been great.

And the sleepover at lil poh's house too, in which we talked and laughed so hard I had asthmatic cough for the night, and then the birthday dinner I attended when I haven't even met the birthday boy before. how muka tembok i know right but it was fun nevertheless :P. haha! =P

And this coming week, more rounds of meet-ups/dinner/yumcha.
(Oh crap, wallet is seriously getting thinner! How now brown cow?)

And that particular meet-up, should I or should I not? hmm.

nyehe! picure time! :P

Goodnight. Guess I won't be insomniac tonight after tiring myself from the past few days! =D

What up yo!

Hello folks! It's been awhile since I last bothered to update this blog.

I was barely half done with the semester when I previously blogged. Who would have guessed that the next time I touch this blog (which is now, today) would be after I have completed my final semester in university, and even, my life as a student has now come to an end! Well, unless I decided to do postgraduate studies but even so, I would not consider myself being a student then. Haha.

Somehow I have lost the urge to always write about things like how I used to. Perhaps it is because I do not take walks like I do in Australia anymore; neither do I do all my chores on my own anymore. Hence less observation of my surroundings and thinking (I usually do a lot of thinking on my way home from the university when I was studying in Aussie), and thus less inspiration to pen down my thoughts.

Life in Subang is just so different. I'm so pampered and well taken care of - much lesser chores to do, always being chauffeured around/have car, have mom to take care of my well-being (self explanatory, that almost fully explained the meaning of "being pampered"), dad to take care of my finances and a bit of my well-being as well, sis to go shopping with (and maybe buy me lunch/tea/stuffs), bro for me to call for when I face technology/gadget difficulties, and more friends here to study with (and now, graduate together!!). I mean come on, everything's here at a place I call home! In some ways I feel very blessed. =)

Anyway, I mentioned that I have completed my studies. Indeed, that's right. I am basically having the time of my life now - full freedom from the books/notes/lectures/tutorials, no commitments, no datelines, long hours of sleep, going out or spending time at home whenever I wanted to, etc. But I know that this is bound to end soon when I get a job. I'm currently still in the midst of preparing/finalizing my CV and application to some companies and let's hope I get through to the big companies! Too long a period of enjoyment brings detriment too. The brain functions at a slower pace, but the wallet thins at an even faster pace! I feel like a parasite, eroding dad's capital as I spend on shopping and good food so much. Hence, I seriously gotta get a job soon and start earning my own money.

So here's a brief recap on what's happened during the past few months. Shall not bother writing too much as it'll take forever to complete.

1) Basically, there were birthdays...

CK's birthday. Just a simple dinner with friends (quite a big group. picture above only consists of all who wore green in which I'm included *proud smiles*) and hang out sessions that's all.

Then it was Navjit's birthday celebration in the midst of exams AND after exams where we went for dinner together. and it was catching up sessions with Lobeka who came back, from aussiesesatland, Gene bean who *ahem* had some (or many) updates lately, and of course, here I'm talking bout Hwee as well. Updates *wink wink*. Haha. I can't help smiling when I think of all the good news/things that happened ever since exams ended! =D Haven't met the other few from their SJ gang though but will soon do I suppose! (It's still very funny and unbelievable that I'm keeping in touch with more SMKSJ people than those from my own high school!?)

Then there were also Ee Ann's and Grace's birthdays but these we did not get to celebrate due to unallowing circumstances but chill out girls! Presents coming your way! =D



2) I worked at Adam Lambert's glamnation tour concert...
and it was hella fun! I loved Lambert, I loved his vocals, and his charisma. Very amazing indeed. Anyway, great experience. I got placed at the VIP area with those pretty girls and I suppose I'm considered as one of them? nyaha! =P

Anyway that should be all for today. Chao for now ladies and gentlemen. Take care and good luck with your endeavours til we meet again! =D



Love,
Shan.

Guess what?

I combed my hair today! It's been awhile...

HELLO COMB! It's been almost a year since I last used you! =D

Hi. Missed me?

Hi. Missed me?

Thought so! =P

Oh no! My 1 week mid sem break is officially over! To be honest, I spent that whole week bumming around more than doing anything productive. Partially also because baby Amanda (my cousin) is here for the week as her parents are overseas. She's such a distraction because she's too adorable. Just couldn't resist playing with her!

And, I had an assignment due today at 5pm. Just handed it in. Basically I spent the whole week doing it, yet I still had to sleep at 5.30am last night. The reason? Well.... procrastination, of course =(

Well, anyway it's all over! Assignments for the semester (and potentially for the entire uni life)! Now I gotta shift my focus to the remaining tutorial work and revision for final exams. It's all happening in 23 days! OH LORD THAT FAST?! No, seriously, OMG. And what am I doing here and on Facebook again? Shit, self-control, SELF CONTROL! =(

Ok no wordy post for now (it's been awhile since the last wordy post yes?) because I've been too busy to ponder on things! No time to think, no. AHH I dread exams =( But, fret not! For there're loads of activities lined up after exams!

The Grace is coming back! And hey daling, can't wait to go do breakfast! karaoke! shopping! and... road trips? =D omgggg I ought to get my pricey-but-pretty-which-is-worth-it white and black bow ribbon in addition to my red and white collection. No, seriously. OH and not to forget, my EMO GIRLS reunion! plus the guys of course. More trips I can foresee? =D

As for now, I gotta get back to the books and the notes.

*nerd mode*

stone. =(

Watch these!

Sorry, Sorry / Super Junior MV 中文空耳字幕-那根芭蕉版

Seriously, you just gotta watch this video - Super Junior: Sorry Sorry.

It is super hilarious. I know it's meant to be cool and entertaining and yes, i find it entertaining, but hilariously entertaining. It's so funny it's like instant stress relieve everytime i watch it. The dance steps are kinda funny, plus so many guys dancing like this.... hahahahahahahaah omg. Really. And the chinese lyrics that some dude created. It's totally hilariously awesome. Watch it, I command! =D

Jane Zhang & JJ 我飞故我在 "Fly" 张靓颖 林俊杰

Gotta thank Joey Goh for sending this link to me. Didn't know the joy boy had such awesome taste too :P It's a very beautiful song i reckon! Both their voices are very good and complement each other well. I particularly like jane zhang's vocals more in this song. As for jj, well i've always liked his voice =)

Spreading the love yo!

Sue Shan ♥ - studehh babehh says (9:56 PM):
lobeka
my pm
damn yeng rait
♥
Sue Shan ♥ - studehh babehh says (9:57 PM):
so yeng i oso kenot tahan
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
Becca says (9:57 PM):
u so mengada i kenot tahan
Becca says (9:58 PM):
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥

Sue Shan ♥ - studehh babehh says (10:00 PM):
hahahahaahahahaaha
aiya chill la
Sue Shan ♥ - studehh babehh says (10:01 PM):
im just saying what i think ma
Becca says (10:01 PM):

Sue Shan ♥ - studehh babehh says (10:01 PM):
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Becca says (10:03 PM):
♥♥
♥♥
♥
♥ (she spammed super alot of hearts but i erased to make it shorter =P)
Sue Shan ♥ - studehh babehh says (10:03 PM):
you
damn
free
-____-
Becca says (10:04 PM):
copy and paste it 4 times doesn show free horrrrrr




See. I updated ma blog! =D

Helloooo =D

Sarapohz and Lobeka said that my blog is dead.

Well, it's not now! =D

P/s: I made a new cbox account due to the previous overly-spammed cbox by some unknown spammers. Let's hope it won't happen again =)

Spam alert

I hope you guys noticed that my cbox on the right of this page had been filled with some "comments" from "commenters" giving links and asking people to visit their site. In fact I'm not even sure whether those are actual people typing those messages or whether those are just spams.

Whatever it is, I urge you NOT to click. It is safer not to, I reckon. I have reported some as spam and even banned some ip addresses but it didn't seem to work quite well. They just keep coming. And it is seriously damn annoying. If this continues, I might consider deleting the cbox from my blog.

Please take note, ladies and gentlemen.

Updates

1. Amanda
3 weeks ago when I first came home from Australia, there was a baby at my house. The baby's name is Amanda and she belongs to my aunt. Mom helped aunt to take care of the baby for 1 month while aunt goes to work. But last Friday, the baby went home for good cos her mom resigned and became a full time housewife to take care of her.

Amanda is so adorable. Having a baby at home made me learn a bit on how to take care of babies, by observing how mom does it (she's pretty experienced in this, after years of raising my siblings and I). Well, the best part of it all was that I learnt to carry her. It was kinda scary to carry a month old babies cos they seemed so fragile but I did it and liked it especially when she seemed secured in my arms and smiled widely as she slowly fell asleep peacefully. That experience was truely priceless =) She just made me love babies more.

This is how baby Amanda looks like. She is so adorable nobody could resist and she is now the center of the whole family's attention. Such a right time to exist, being the only baby in the family and the whole family's love and care are showered on her without other babies to share :p

Anyway she went home to her mom last Friday and the whole family missed her. But we can still see her anytime we want at her house =)

*****

2. A trip to the cinema
HOHO I went out with my girls today to pyramid to watch a movie. The choices were between Despicable Me and Inception. But guess what we ended up watching yo! It is Twi to the light Twilight Eclipse. HAHA. Cos Shari and Grace had to leave early and the next session for those 2 movies were too late.

But hey to be fair this time it isn't that bad compared to the second, and I didn't watch the first so I'm not gonna compare it to the first. The second one was seriously a pain. But the third one was alright, though not superb. At least there was an element of suspense on whether Victoria will find Bella and what they'll do to defend themselves against the new-born vampires etc.

But the cheesiness between Edward and Bella, oh boy, cracked me up a little. I laughed at one point when it was so cheesy I could not take it and Suan and Shari both laughed as well haha. But don't get me wrong. Cheesy is good, cheesy is good (it's kinda ticklish if you get what I mean hahahhahahaa).

*****

3. The end of a journey, the beginning of another
Technically the semester is starting tomorrow but my classes only start on Thursday. Sigh, it's back to that same ol routine (that I dread) again. But then again, this can never be avoided. It is part of the process that everyone has to encounter in growing up. And this is my final semester as a student, after which I would most probably be working.

Time really flies. It still feels as though it was just yesterday when I first came to Monash, and before I know it, I have only 1 semester left to complete my studies. And at this time next year, I would most probably be already working! Sometimes I think I grow up too fast. I dread jumping onto the job-searching and career-life oriented bandwagon. But hey that's life, babeh. If this is not what I'll be doing, I don't know what else will be.

But I guess as much as I dread the future working-life, I kinda look forward to what I may face as that is where I would gain more knowledge on the real world and life, and hopefully achievements and self-satisfaction at work.

But looking on the brighter side, I hope to make full use of my remaining half a year of life as a student. And it's pretty exciting to be back at the Malaysian campus because there are more pretty girls here than in Caulfield! Or maybe they are just easier to be spotted here than Caulfield? haha =P It's not that I have specific interest in pretty girls, but don't we all love looking at pretty things? =D

Anyway it's late, time for bed. Goodnight before the sun rises hohoho =D

Time to be a nerd again! 8-)

Have you seen a nerd camwhore?

There. =P

Faith

This week is my final week of freedom. The second semester of the year starts next week.

After which, it means another (and potentially the final) round of stress, assignments, tutorial works, and exams. Seriously I dread exams. I realize I always do not perform my best in exams. Perhaps it's cos I overstress myself prior to the exams that during the actual exam day itself I have no more willpower to sustain the mood and thus, I under-perform. Sometimes I feel very angry with that attitude of mine too.

For the coming semester, I hope for consistent hard work. I hope I will sustain the mood to study and always keep up with syllabus. I think I am really poor in time management. This shall be something about me that I need to observe and hopefully improve the next semester. It is my final semester, and I just needa nail it.

And I am writing this so that when I look back, I remember this is what I wanted to strive for. So much thoughts flowing through my mind now - thoughts regarding my academic life which is coming to an end, my career life which is drawing closer and closer, and my achievements in life so far. I am still looking for my talent and something that I would excel in but unfortunately, I just can't seem to find a satisfying answer yet.

And the more this happens, the less faith I have in life. Sometimes when you see people achieving what you've always strived for, you ask yourself, where did you go wrong? If you've worked hard and they too worked hard, but they achieved so much more than you did, then how much more hard work do you have to put in to gain the equivalent amount as what they have gained?

Life isn't fair. Some are born with natural talents and are good in everything without trying much; while for people like me, I have never been the brightest kid in town, nor the handsomest among the rest. And therefore there's a lot more for me to do in order to be on par with others. This is, indeed, very tiring. But I shall take the remaining semester as a real challenge, and continue fighting to at least gain as much as I can before my opportunity dies down.

Please, God bless me. Thank you.

I learnt that...

There's always 2 sides of story to a dispute. The involved party always thinks he's right and the other party is always wrong in his opinion. And then he'll tell his friends his side of story which would appear to his friends that he's right and the other party is wrong. This happens most of the time.

I have almost never been in one and always chose to avoid but it will still affect me rather greatly if the other party goes overboard. It is, however, very tiring to be in one but sometimes it is just difficult to forget what's happened and talk to that person like normal. At least not so soon.

Cheers.

Random thoughts 11/7/2010

I miss taking walks home from uni alone after my classes when I was in Australia, especially when the weather was good and not too cold. The walks were usually peaceful and observing the surrounding stimulates my mind and makes me think. I remember observing how fat the birds in Aus were. And I am still amazed by their size compared to Malaysian birds, really. =/

But I'm not complaining that I do not get to take walks anymore. The lifestyle of being chauffeured in car in Malaysia is good as well. Saves energy + there's air con =)

Anyway, point is, I think that my brain hasn't been really working due to holidays (too relaxed, don't needa think much) and holidays are quite a bore, it makes one lazy as a result of lazing around at home too much rather than stimulating a person's mind. But when there're classes, things pass by too quickly that you feel you do not have enough time for studies.

I really wish there could be more balance in this. Like we have more frequent but shorter holidays (1 week holiday after every 2 weeks of classes), rather than long holidays all at one go (1 or 4 months holiday). I don't know if it's actually feasible, but all I know is that it will not happen.


Cheers.

Affections

Majority of the society judge people by appearance. Though it might seem shallow to some people, but you might realize that subconsciously appearance does affect your impression on a person.

Furthermore, how can the society (especially young minds that aren't completely molded yet) not be affected when majority of the hit songs describe affections based on appearance.


An example that I came across most recently is this:

Honey got a booty like pow, pow, pow
Honey got some boobies like wow, oh wow
Girl you know I'm loving your, loving your style
Check, check, check, check, check, checking you out like,
Ooh (oooh) she got it all
Sexy from her head to the toes
And I want it all, it all, it all

Usher -OMG

And we all know there are plentyyyy more describing affections in the same way. This just shows how people get attracted to people based on looks.

Just gotta admit that appearance does play a part in this huh?

Is this a good or bad thing? Well it's up to you to judge =)

Bad antics

Would you feel disturbed when people talk to you,with many swear words included in their speech? Or are you the type who uses swear words in your speech?

I don't know bout you but personally, I cannot stand people including a lot of swear words when talking. It might be excusable to use it when you're mad or angry but is there actually a need to use it in casual conversation? It is even more unpleasant when a girl does this.

And I have this thing against smokers. I usually walk away when someone near me starts smoking. And I find it disturbing to see girls smoking. Especially those with bleached hair, thick black eye make up, super short shorts (torn denim, super hipster), super high heels. I think it looks pretty degrading, doncha think?

The foul words are disturbing, the smoking is sick. But yet I wonder why some people think it's cool and why they do it.

Hmm. Thoughts to ponder around? =)


Cheers.

The earth is spinning too fast

Seriously, I wonder where my 24 hours in a day go. Time really passes insanely fast.

In a blink of an eye, an hour passed. Before you know it, it's nightfall again.
24 hours felt long but it wasn't actually enough to spare.
You realize you didn't do much in a day but yet, there goes your day.
It passed just right under your nose.

That's life for you, ladies and gentlemen.

New header

New picture for header. This time there're 5 of us in the picture. Ho ho Sarapohz happy? =P